everything is not... how it seems ✨
gloopy
a lil overwhelming, a tad terrifying
got a lot of faces
I have a blue house with a blue window
positive affirmations from one weirdo to another
sugary sweet // illustration inspired by candy and the pursuit of sweet thangs // eat too much, spend too much, it’s all a part of the game
DIDN’T SAY BANANA
BUG EYES
When I was growing up, I didn’t have language around race and ethnicity and I ended up spending so much time internalizing the experiences I had that made me feel other. I remember when people used to stare at my family in Chili’s and my parents told us to wave back. When we asked why these adults were staring, mom would say “it’s because you’re so pretty” and sometimes I wish she had told the truth — it’s because they think you’re different and they don’t know how to react. I remember watching tv shows and whenever we would see a vaguely Asian face, my sisters and I would scramble to ethnicelebs.com and verify that, indeed, they were like us. The presence of these people on TV taught me that maybe I could be American enough if I never recognize our differences. I remember the first frat parties I attended at college and going up to mixed people to clarify that yes, they (too) were like me. With a population of 8% Asian, 2% mixed, this was a jump from the ~10 Asian American students I knew from my hometown, it felt so new. Looking back, it’s not that these people necessarily were exactly like me... it’s that they existed. That by them being real, then maybe, inherently, I was real too. I think somewhere along the way, I learned to stop expecting for the media I consume to reflect the life I live. And then sometimes I see someone on tv/the internet/irl that reminds me that yes, I am real. This week I heard @hayleykiyoko in two different stores and it made me tear up because somehow, suddenly, I felt so seen.
revolutions around the sun
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soft smiles
corporate pride szn
somewhere, sometime
smol reminders
‘Love Me Still’ 💸 TY @jessiereyez @blvkjvck for this gem of a song
I HOPE YOUR EXISTENTIAL CRISIS IS TREATING YOU WELL!!
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